in the middle

I know i've heard this said, multiple times and in multiple ways: "life in the middle", meaning life in between, in transition, waiting, etc. And lately I've been feeling like we are 'in the middle' if you will - waiting, wondering, hoping for what's next. The thing about being in this place though, is that it's easy to forget where you are.  Andy and I have lived in Denver for 6 1/2 years together. In that time we've bought a house, gotten married, had two amazing kids, and now we're trying to sell our house, start looking at schools for Hudson, and are celebrating our five year anniversary this November. So a lot has happened. Yet we often find ourselves talking too much about what's next - where are we going? what are we going to do?

It's a hard place to be. We want to settle down, plant roots, invest. But at the same time we feel the pull to leave, be closer to family, be at a place that we can see ourselves in for life. So here we are, in between.

I don't know what will happen next. I don't know if we should keep trying. I don't know if we should just stop the conversation and focus on where we are today. With our kids. With good jobs. With good health, ability to travel (if we can afford it!). Some days i think I'm present, appreciating and investing in the now. Other days I have a longing to be somewhere else, and can almost visualize life five years from now - not in Denver.

So, I'll do what I know. Pray. Ask for Peace, Patience, and Faith. And I'll continue trying my best to trust God's plan for our lives, knowing He'll open doors when the timing is right. In the mean time, I will be thankful for what I have, where I'm at, and the many gifts and blessings I experience every day. Like today, when Hudson asked me to sit with him, rub his back, read him a book. BE with him. Tomorrow can take care of itself, right?